On Sunday 23rd November 08 Steven, Darcie, Uncle Adam and I, went to a Remembrance Service at Salford Cathedral (in memory of all the children who sadly passed away in the last two years). We added Lola's remembrance page to a book of remembrance, lit a candle for our little Angel, and received a beautiful flower, and took part in an act of remembrance. It was an extremely emotional but comforting service, as poems were read, and songs played (all of which we could relate to so much). The Day Begins- The churning starts as the day begins In my stomach the familiar fear Nothing in life can be the same When you lose someone so dear So up i get and do the things One is expected to do Like eating, drinking, living! But how can i without you. 'Hello you're looking well' they say They have no idea they do not know What it's like to lose a child To say good-bye, to let them go Unless they've 'been there, done that' They cannot know the pain The dark despair, the agony Of not seeing your child again The face i show isn't genuine It's there to make life easy For all around who don't understand And think life's 'easy-peasy' My daily face gives nothing away I don't tell them how i feel I look ok, so must be But my broken heart won't heal.